Feelings are perhaps the scariest things in this world. They have the ability to control people, make them crazy. Feelings and emotions can drown you in a second if you're not careful. You can be fine one second, but crying in a corner the next. When people come into our lives, it's like they bring a little box filled with all these little things that will drive you crazy, make you fall head over heels for them. Once you realize you have fallen under someone's spell, you're already too late. Emotions have the ability to make us or break us. They have a power like nothing else in this world. They are who we are, and they make us into the people we are going to be. Emotions are a scary thing, but they can create some of the most beautiful things in the world, if both ends handle with care. Love, hate, sadness, pride, all of these can do amazing things if we let them. Pick what you let dictate you. What emotions will you allow?
I remember afternoons on the cliffs, taking long drags off cigarettes, whispering into the wind as it whipped our hair across our cheeks. I remember these small, tragically beautiful moments, our desperate attempts at romanticizing our own sadness. How else could we have passed the time and still survived? We were a snapshot in time, stuck in our sadness in the past. We've grown since then to be so much more than that, but there's something strangely special about those moments. Something about it that's burned into my memory, the smell of smoke mixing with the salty sea air. Kelp rotting away on the shore below us, like a sick metaphor for what we were doing to ourselves. The wet tips of my canvas shoes from carelessly stepping through puddles, and the familiar feeling of cold feet.
Hoje à noite a Terra deve girar. Hoje à noite as estrelas hão de cintilar, em seu brilho longínquo. Hoje à noite, quem sabe, a Lua faça uma visita, se preparando para o grande evento do próximo domingo. Neste dia, para algumas formas conscientes de sua existência, ela entrará na frente de um deus perpétuo para eles. A Lua se colocará entre a casa dessas formas e sua fonte inesgotável de energia, de vida...
Mas, hoje à noite, quem sabe, a Lua faça uma visita, mas sem nem olhar para essas formas. Ela estará Nova, olhando para o grande deus brilhante e explosivo, inalcançável.
I feel myself falling in love with you. Melting into a sweet familiarity. You're the only person that I've ever been able to talk to this way. The only one I could ever talk to for five hours at a time multiple nights out of the week and not run out of things to say. You've told me your stories, with a kind of timidness in your voice I wouldn't have expected. You let the details slip out as you add polite disclaimers, hoping I won't think any less of you for your mistakes. I find myself falling further especially in those moments that make you fear a sudden halt. I find myself dreaming of your arms wrapped around me, and remembering the way my face feels pressed into your neck. I catch myself missing you at all hours of the day. And that's how I know that I love you.
wow, what a great topic. i regret lots of things right away, but after thinking about them for a bit, not many of them do i regret after. i find that most of what i "regret" has gotten me to where i am today so i guess i can't really regret them afterall because i would not be who i am or where i am. this is the case with lots of things, like working at mitchell, or my drinking past. yes, there are some specific things i do still regret, but i don't know how integral they are to my story and my growth and who i am today so it is difficult to know. i guess i associate regret with "wish to change" and i don't know that i would wish to change anything. i mean, yes, there is lots i wish i had changed, but i actually do like who i am and where i am today, and because of what i believe as far as everything is related and everything puts us on a certain path, it is hard to say i really actually wish something was different, because i don't know where i'd be or who i am today. not to say i couldn't be better but i like who i am and where i am based on what i know now. i'd rather take what i have and like than roll the dice on being better and by chance, it may end up worse. i don't know what else to say, i would like this to be a great topic, it is a great topic. i will work on it. i hurt still inside with some of my past choices, and i know i need to keep working on this so that i can embrace all of me and not wish to "shut the door" on the past.