You're leaving me. You're leaving meout to dry. You were the soul cause of my happiness. But you drifted away. Did my lack of ambition bum you out? Did it make you think that I was only ordinary? I thought that we had something special. An unbreakable friendship. A lifelong bond. But to me, you were the personification of paradise. And I? To you was just another person you were obligated to talk to. Because you were too nice to not acknowledge me. I was different. But I didn't change. The world around me did. I am still the outcast I once was, but the world has now changed its definition of an outcast. But I am learning to accept this fate. It will not stop me from getting what I set out to achieve. It won't stop me from being the best I can. I will win this battle of life with or without you.
If you think about it, telling stories is the superpower that I never knew I had. I used to paint portraits of my days with the words within my five year old vocabulary. I told of tall tales so often that it became routine. As I grew up, the power of my words appeared to be fading. No one cared about what a scared little girl had to say. Instead of using my words to paint my pictures, I used the silence in between and the colors that no longer lit up my face. I created my own universe from depression and deprivation. Years later when I finally sat down and wrote out the pain, I saw the words grow bigger than they had ever been before. I learned that my words had never been small, only the voice behind them. And my stories had never been forgotten, only failed to have been mentioned. This is where the power of my words lie; in the magic that is created when they are spoken.
The Big Bang Theory, How I Met Your Mother, Modern Family, Friends...I love these TV shows so much! I love watching TV, as well as my computer...
My favourite TBBT character is Amy Farrah Fowler-a neurobiologist, Sheldon's Girlfriend. In HIMYM it's Lily, in MF it's Alex and in Friends it's Phoebe.
I love TBBT becaue it's funny, entertaining. TBBT's cast is perfect for the show-Johnny Galecki, Jim Parsons and Kaley Cuoco are in it.
I am actually running out of ideas for this fable...Modern Family's Alex is geeky, smart and intelligent. She's the only smart one of three children. I love MF and TBBT so much...I'm out of time
We are stepping into a new chapter. There are no clear lines. Leaves fall when they want to, as long as it is in a prescribed zone. Ode to scribe conquests. Spreading now module. It is a new direction with strangers and friends repositioning themselves on the float. It's the conductor changing the direction of the parade route. I've wrestled loose a tentacle or two and they are now making contact with new handles and are pulling on different levers. What is going to unfold? We don't know. But there is hope. All change is stuffed with creamy hope and hot anticipation. It's about aligning your gift sets with some objective will, God's will if you will. And you will. It's about working with the right corresponding pieces and avoiding ditch diggers and disillusioned nieces. It's about rhyming only when it makes sense. And about stepping through the resistance curtain with confidence and good cheer.
Looking through old journals. A puff of breath, a cloud of yellow dust. Faded ink on retro notebooks. And those words... filled with such depth and thorough analysis of unimportant things, like my emotions. Each sentence constructed, conscientious of my posterity. Always with an eye on the generations that would read about the formation of my greatness. So little authenticity. So little raw emotion expressed. Just analysis of things like "where I'm at" and "how I feel." Noxious journal entries that will make the angels weep with boredom. Self-important drivel that numbs my future. Taints my journey. I wish I would have told the truth. I was an imbecile, lost in a blizzard of inconsequential happenings. I was carefully polishing the inane artifacts of a self-obsessed life. I should have told the truth.