I am staying positive today. Oh yes I am. You will see that I will. Maybe. And its gone. Lost. it all. what to write. it is such a struggle. no flow, just torture. my coffee tasted alright. i am trying st johns wort now. it says to only take one a day and then it says no to exceeded daily dose once more. but i took two!. you may wonder why. it is because i have a feeling they won't tell us the truth regarding this drug in this country. because in studies it has been proven to work. as good as prozac. and yet. you cant get it prescribed. why i ask? i cannot find the answer on the internet. so the thing is. in the studies they used doses of 900mg. and here they sell it in doses of 450 mg. i think it is probably to reduce the risk of serious side effects, seeing it has not been tested properly in this country. anyways, in my country - where it has been tested - you can get it in 900mg strength. so i take double the daily dose. watcha gonna do about it? here is where my conspiracy theory comes in: they haven't tested it here because they know it works as well as all the synthetic drugs, with fewer side effects and at less cost: meaning; it beats the expensively developed antidepressants that make the pharma giants billions. so the pharma giants intervened via lobbying in order to sell their own drugs. no studies. no approval. no sell.