Sunday night. Feeling considerably better. Cant really tell why. Suppose the St. Johns Wort is kicking in. Or maybe the Counselling is. Or maybe it is my lucky find of the coding academy. Its a pretty cool thing. I took a PHP course there over the last couple of days and really enjoyed it. Also: the website 80000 hours. Somehow it has given me hope. Strangely I am not feeling very social. I like my own company better and better at the moment. Financially the situation is still very challenging to say the least. But I am seeing light at the end of this ridiculously long tunnel. And I think I am almost ready to climb to new heights again. There was a noise on the third floor, it is a bit spooky because we used to joke that there is a ghost in the the house. That reminds me. Yesterday I went to a talk about "Harnessing your Inner Perfectionist". Well that was a good one. I loved it. She was teaching us about how when we are content, we see perfection all around us. and That contentment is a place of great courage, not lazy at all. You see. We can just stop judging, just be ok with stuff and it will magically transform our relationship with whatever it is we were judging. Suddenly we can even start appreciating the thing. I am feeling stronger and stronger. I lasted until Sunday so I can last for longer.