Not today. This day belongs to me. Today I will push the clouds away. Yes, I can see them outside thick and heavy and warm and grey in the summer sky. But not in my summer sky. I don't care how loud I have to play the music, how much weight I have to press in the gym, or how many coffees or glasses of wine I need. I will not succumb to the fear and misery today. I am the light. I am fighting for my little piece of this earth where I, too, can enjoy a pleasant existence. Not war all the time. There is no point in war if there is no peace. And I will have my peace today. I will fight my battles. But in dignity. I will not bow down and have pain command my existence. I will make this battle into a glorious, dramatic, memorable yes pleasurable experience. This is my freedom, this is my choice. If I must suffer I will at least enjoy my suffering. If I must get stronger, I will at least embrace the strengthening. If I must wait, then I will make patience into a triumphant dance through the night. I can feel the gods between the stars looking down in delight. The spirit surrounds me and it lights up the darkness like fire.