I have never been scared of having feelings for anyone. I have always liked the way it made me feel, all the thrills and excitement that goes along with it. The part that terrified me was how I felt when that person knew the truth. Sure, I drop hints. That never worried me. But actually admitting to them what I felt, paralyzed me. It is so much easier to go through life with your feelings organized into one neat little box, that stayed locked away from everyone else. That's the reason I am terrified to tell you the truth. The truth is that you are a firecracker. Intriguing, loud, and always draws attention. But to me, you are more than that. You are the reason I smile, for absolutely no reason. You are beyond breathtaking, and I mean that even in the morning before you wake up. You are the only person that has allowed me to be myself, and understands even when you truly have no idea what's going on in my head. But when my mind starts sorting through a thousand things and I just go insane, you somehow make me feel like I am still normal. I am so scared to tell you the truth because I am so scared to feel it. This is new to me. It scares me that I can look at you in the middle of a regular conversation and just think, "goddamn she is the most breathtaking thing I have ever seen." It scares me how bad I want you. Saying it to you makes it real, and I am ready for that no matter where it takes me.