Everything is so fragile I'm terrified I'm so scared I think there is something wrong, there's a lump. I always used to think that this life wasn't enough for me. I wanted to feel depressed because everyone who was got so much attention but I'm so wrong. How could I ever feel like that when right now I'm petrified that my life could be altered by this one growth. I'm scared I'm afraid I feel severely lonely I can't think of anyone to tell. If it is serious I'm not brave enough, I can't be brave enough to stand up in front of my family and in front of my friends and tell them that I could die. How horrible for them I can only imagine my mums heart break, my brothers young innocence will be stripped away. My already crazy sister will probably spin out of control. My dad will be so lonely what could I say why can't I stop crying I didn't know I could cry this much I hope it all goes away I wish for it to be nothing god damn it someone comfort me please please!