I am in doubt about the nature of my existence. I seek a sanctuary in my mind where I can just be myself. Don't we all. IT's necessary. Our mind is our private escape. No harm can find us there. Unless it originates there. Scary to think that we can be our own worst enemies. IT's often said that no matter ho far we go the journey never ends until we find closure within ourself. I'm rambling. I know. This isn't easy. It will never be. I see that now. But it's necessary. I need to push through this. Fast. I need to get better.. I have a dream and this is the whetstone upon which I shall polish my skills until I mature into the artist I know I am capable of being. To better days. Farewell.