Of all of the people in the world who could have been there tonight, it was the one little girl who looked up to me for advice. I failed. I let something snap, and I let her down. For a split moment in time, nothing mattered; only the anger that I had bottled up inside. I let something go, and I showed how broken I really was to a whole lot of people. She saw me break, right there in front of her. That wasn't me. I was supposed to be the strong one who kept her together. But in that moment, someone else had to hold me back. I turned into a monster that I didn't recognize, in front of a crowd of people. I let the world in on my big secret... that I'm not okay, and I don't know how to be either. It's scary. It's terrifying not knowing where to go from here. Nothing seems worth it, but everything is on the line. I tried to be that good person for her. I tried so hard, and I let her down. It broke my heart more than anything to know that I had shattered like glass in front of her. I was supposed to be the picture of what it looks like to get through things. But I let her see the truth of what a cruel world can do to you.