I am standing in the hall, my brain is in the closet trying to construct a new and surprising thought. The door swings open and my brain says: "Sinners love to sled." I yell at my brain “Get back in there and don’t come out until you have something better than this! What kind of non-sense is this?” The door creeks open moments later and my brain emerges with a grin: “Pencils pulverizing pensive dictators.” I stomp my foot: “If I wanted alliteration I would have went to a grade-school, now get back in there.” My brain closes the door with a frown. And when He comes out, he looks humble. He says: “Even if I could grasp a planet and spin it on my finger, you will always want something better. I could put hair brushes on the feet of donkeys and teach them to brush the teeth of whales, and you would not be impressed.” My shoulders droop. I open my arms and embrace my brain in a comforting hug. “Oooh, there, there. You know I love you little guy. Hey, you’re my little buddy. Now get back in there and try again.”
If I shake this place up with my sarcasm, how much more will I shake up the dens of sinners? I am a sarcastic, metaphorical wrecking ball, drunk on divinely appointed missions of reconciliation. I am the deconstruction minister. There are candy-bar wrappers blowing around a bed of flowers. I want them picked up right now or I will start spouting sarcastic observations about all of your futility. There are smoke stacks seeping with toxic darkness. I want them torn down now or I will start jamming smokestacks through your disenchanted, erotic billboards. Listen to me, church-goers. Listen to me, homeowners. Listen to me all you who are pre-qualified for a loan. I’ve got something that needs to be in your ear, and I want you to pull your head out of the internet for just one moment to listen. You think I bought this megaphone for nothing?
The pushing cart and the pushing cart woman in a storm of fleece and mayberry’s. And quills of springtime below her wounded feet. She is the driver of the pushing cart with - all sorts of mysteries inside: Gifts for kids. Todays newspaper from a year ago, just to see the contrast. And what about that funny hat. Wow. We all laughed when we saw it, I mean, let’s face it, it looks ridiculous. But now, we all want to wear it. But with her hair it’s tied to her head so the wind won’t blow it away. And, oh how the wind would like to wear that funny hat. It would wear it on a gusty breeze, wear it over all the seven seas, and let it fall in Indonesia on a plumber who has just lost his job and is sadder than he’s ever been before. He smiles when that funny little hat falls on his head. And the woman, on another continent pushes her cart, not knowing the gift she could have given in the wind had her funny hat not been sewed to her head.
There are verses and lines, and there are old lovers who animate them. There are poems and there are longings, and there are old religions that keep them from becoming too sentimental. People will say anything to keep from being hurt. People will tell you what you want to hear to keep you from rejecting them. Poetry is scientific. Lovers can’t come back. Religion is scientific. Music can not save your soul. From ambulance drivers to hopeless romantics, from concrete workers to a professor’s semantics, love is a beautiful thing. It is pounding on our windows. It is tapping on our mailboxes. It is clutching our eye-lids and holding them open to the light.
Your problem is that you cannot distinguish the puzzle on the table from the picture on the box. That’s your problem. You just stand there dipping your toes in a river with fools, wishing success was as easy as breathing. Wishing struggle was a problem only for evil people. Meanwhile a storm is brewing, and nobody knows how bad the weather will become. But here’s the reason for hope: Nobody can make you do anything. You are your own puzzle-boggled toe-dipper. Look at you there now. You do whatever you want. You weather the storm. You weather the weather. But whether you weather the weather or not, you still must complete this puzzle, or else put it back in it's box.
Shafts of light squiggle around the barstools. Beer kegs roll across the dance floor. Sirens blare around the watertower. And I am speaking into your receptacle. Your earlobe. Your brilliant soundwave notepad. You are jotting things down deep within the Neverlands of your frontal lobe. You’ve got organisms that are sorting my words according to their importance. According to some neuro-chemical relevance criteria. The waitress looks concerned. The guy coming in from the parking lot looks disgruntled. Snow weighs down the autumn leaves. The first snowy day feels the coldest. You’ve got spark-plugs behind your eyes that stimulate the most hypnotizing gazes. You’ve got bread crumbs behind your cheekbones, and birds are flapping their wings to get in. You’ve got those shafts of light around your spinning barstool.
All my secrets turn to mush in the mirrors and magic medicine halls that I wander, when I wander (if I wander at all). There are powers in the minds of men. There are secret powers in the thoughts of children (powers that inspire). There is power in the air that degenerates us. A gravity beyond gravity, so it seems. A secret gravity that somehow worms its way into the secret power-centers of people, and holds down their secret powers. DEFY, children! DEFY GRAVITY! DEFY! Rise up out of your gravity and conquer all that pulls and presses. I have become lost and wandered into these mysterious medicine halls. But I will not die here... I promise you that right now.
Believe me, I’ve considered your syntax. I’ve analyzed your prose and it’s intentional flow. I see where your coming from. I see you there through beams of light. You speak in syntactical prose and I discern it. You have packaged this in a certain way, and I have uncovered it. You speak of love and nostalgia, but do so with carefully chosen words so as to not forget about death. You write with pride. Your words are bold. Your candle is wax. Your scrolls are old. Your flame is dim. You speak of love. Your syntax is revealed. You speak of love. Your prose are flowing like melted wax down a table post. Your flow is pro. It’s syntactical. It’s analyzed. Well done.
People are approachable, but you have to approach them in the right way. You can’t just jump at them from behind the flag pole, or spring up at them from out of their hose-box. You have to move smoothly and casually, like “it ain’t nothing.” You can’t bring up sad stories or spew forth the drama of your past, and they just do not care about your idiotic fathers and your unsatisfiable mothers. All they care about is their own wish lists and their own to-do lists. Approach them with a helping hand, and they will invite you to dinner. Approach them with a task and they will darken the tone of their voice. Approach them with intoxicated slur and they will awkwardly back away. Sober up then. Wash yourself and prepare for your approach. Come in smoothly and offer a helping hand.
My journey is always bogged down by “the others.” I’m surrounded by other people who get in my way. Look at them all! They are “sign-readers.” Vote-casters. They are "anti-vagabonds" who scrape and wander and go far below the speed limit and I can’t seem to get around them. I signal and blink. I cuss and shake my head. Yet I need people. I am a social animal. I was designed for community. “These signs were made by people,” I shout. I am built to love and incomplete without a friend. “These stoplights are here to serve us! We are not their servants!” But I am surrounded by sign readers and people who conceal their cheats. My car is a turbo charged sedan, but there is never enough room to really let that turbo blow. I am a social animal. Leave me alone.