You should know by now that it is time. Behold the beauty of her! Behold this magnificent creature and bow down to her glory! Nothing else can save you. Nothing else can bring you peace. Now bring yourself down and lie at her feet. Don't stop reading this dear believer, for how else can you lose yourself? Keep you eyes on this page, let them caress each word carefully. Let your mind picture what I am about to describe. For you are now ready. I hope you have said goodbye to those around you, it is now time to give yourself up to the only thing that matters. It is your greatest privilege. Let these words seep into your brain and let it be known to your body that it is time to let go. Be proud recruit, for you will be a wonderful feast for her mind, now sit still, it is time she devoured you!
The moon shone brightly above the trees, though the stars were nowhere to be seen. Down below the world was quiet, yet not at all still. People were moving around as silently as shadows, even the mist of their breath made no noise as it escaped into the air. There was no times for words, everyone had a job to do. Pretty crimson laid atop the snow, like fallen berries. No one would dream that night, no one would sleep. Candles and torches burned as each resident prepared their homes. Not one detail could be missed, not one thing out of place. While the village remained quiet, the trees turned their back on the events of that night refusing to observe the festivities. Then, breaking the silence, a piercing scream escaped into the night. There was more than meets the eye in that village, for it wasn't just another cold day, it was Black Winter.
Feeling nothing is worse than feeling alone,
The desperation is hidden deep in my bones,
I'm not here anymore
And the world it's still aching
Too many people are constantly breaking
Just one more crash
And it'll all be undone
How can I hide when I can't even run
So farewell to you all
Who reside in my head
But you're already gone
You were the first to be dead
With just a feeling it all fades so fast
And just like always we all finish last
If you can't quite complete it
Just let it go
Forever is a long time
To hold onto it so
One more night is another too long
Even out in the cold I still won't belong
Because everyone feels and everyone shares
Everyone weeps and nobody cares
Everyone here can laugh and can cry
But I can't anymore
So I might as well die.
She lay in the gutter her tights ripped and vomit down her dress. Her skinny legs were feeling the cold.
'Come on now, you need to get home' she ignored his words and turned to face the wall, groaning slightly.
'Come on Carrie don't give me this shit.'
She laughed for a second then mumbled something to herself, though it was doubtful even she knew what it meant.
'Am I still pretty like this?' She managed to roll her eyes out from the back of her head and gaze up at him 'even when the glitter is down legs and on the floor and no longer above my eyes?' Jasper didn't know what to say, he tried to grab her hand and pull her up but she seemed too reluctant and he didn't want to hurt her.
'You should write this down y'know. I'm a drunken mess just like every teenage girl wants to be and we all know that these words could be poetry. It doesn't even matter what they are. They're sad like me and that's all that matters' she slurred her words slightly barely able to hold her neck steady.
'Im fucked up J, like we all are, but different. Y'know? Like every one is, but I am and even though I'm not worse sometimes it feels like it, because I'm so cold and when you're cold you don't feel things. Or maybe I'm cold because I don't feel thjbgs.'
Jasper knelt down beside her realising the only way to get her home safely was to try and calm her down.