He measures my intelligence by the amount of effort I put into running away from my own reality. He sees my writing as a form of art, but I see it as survival. The thing that most people don't understand about me, is that I use literature to heal the brokenness inside of me. At least with false stories of broken hearts, people think I am in love with the stories. But really, I am in love with the heartbreak that looks like mine. I gather these stories and shattered pieces to fill in the gaps of my own life in hopes that my writing will become whole once again. I am not smart. I really just understand the world in a way that shows the brokenness that lies with the beauty. Being smart is my way of staying alive. Without it, I might as well be dead.
When Jess and girlfriend got big tattoos the same day together I have to admit I got real mad. Jess never did what I told him anyway and I been telling him, kid you get something like under your skin all over and 10 years down the road you commit a crime or something it's going make you a sitting duck. And as for Jenny having your name inked into her forehead. Whoa I didn't know anyone could really that dumb and still be eatin' as good as she does. Maybe it's because she is a vegan...her parents are vegans. even her do is a vegan. and now she's got this tattoo on her forehead. Hard to believe...She'll probably be runnin' for president soon every other nut is.
At school, we're writing our very own TED Talks about something we love. I'm doing 'The Value of Education' because I love school and learning. I'll include some of the speech here: Some people love school some hate it but we should appreciate our opportunity. Many around the world don't get the chance but we do. Everyone has different strengths-English, maths, art, PE included. Maybe only the nerds love school-they are obsessed with math and science, I'm included. Education is vital to become smart, intelligent. I believe everyone should have this opportunity to attend school. I'm running out of time to think but I don't care. I'm just writing about my passion...Time's Up!
I was chasing a giant inflatable pumpkin down a sad New Jersey street when I saw you there with some funny looking contraption on your head. "Have you ever heard of radionics," you asked as the giant pumpkin hurled over the top of an SUV, leapt atop a strip mall, and decimated a billboard, before disappearing over the building, where it continued its episode of manic destruction. "No," I said. You put the contraption atop my head, and my voice could be heard (though not from my mouth) saying "I hate pumpkins anyway." I ripped the thing off my head and said, with my mouth, "what the?" You said, "Radionics is the projection of your thoughts to the world around you." And I said, "But I love pumpkins." And then you said "oh, you must have it on backwards."
They say you cant teach old dogs new tricks but I just learned one and I'm old. So it's not true the saying I mean about old dogs. Funny that. I know other old dogs and I watch them and I don't see them learn even one new trick like I did so I must be a different kind of old dog. SIT UP someone kept saying and that's what I did that was the new trick even though it's silly but I don't say that. The other one even sillier is ROLL OVER. My god what do they take me for its so stupid. I fixed them though the one that kept saying ROLL OVER I mean when I said YOU GO FIRST. And what do you know the person who kept saying ROLL OVER stopped saying that to me and from then on the only trick I did was SIT UP because when I did I got something to eat and I like to eat even though I'm old and getting fat now. Goes to show you you're better off just doing what you want and saying to hell with the everything else especially when there's nothing in it for you after all.