Let me tell you the story of my friend Samantha, or Sam as she likes to be called. She was a wonderful and beautiful person, one who always wanted to see her friends happy and would go out of her way to do it. She would always be available for things to do, and even when she didn't have time, she would make time later in the week or sometime in the future. She had a price to pay however, she wasn't moving forward in her life. She did find time to do side projects here and there, but doing things with her friends and family all the time took away from her personal goals. Now I was always one to say family and friends are important, but I noticed for her, it stood above her own well being. In a sense, she was too selfless and didn't work hard enough to advance her own roles. I always thought she was a free spirit, always going with family to different places all the time, then I realized, is she trapped in this? How can she grow if she didn't strike out on her own more often? It seemed as the days past, Sam would be doing all these fun activities while I myself was working my self away at home, trying to make my work better. In the end though, sadly for her, it seemed that her passion for others left her with none for herself.
looking out the window, i watched the storm take over the sky, drops of water slid down the glass pane, i tried to open the window but it was locked, all i could do was watch the darkness engulf the light as tears rained down from the sky, i began to bang on the window desperately trying to ease her pain but it was too late the ground shook as thunder rumbled from the clouds and sparks of lightening illuminated the flooded ground. her broken soul had given up as the clouds parted and the sky was white, blank, dead
ill watch as you walk the tightrope, ill stand under you just in case you fall, ill hold my breath as your foot slips but you always keep your balance, i will stare at you in awe but deep down i know i am not needed for there is a net beneath you which he wove, i know deep down you are safest in his heart but i cannot help but want you in my own, so ill watch you from below knowing you are to high up for me to reach, ill watch as you walk the tightrope that is your life
i looked into his pale blue eyes and he turned away, he told me not to look too deep or i would drown, i told him i would dive into the darkest parts of his mind, his soul and his heart because ive been swimming in my own thoughts my whole life, im a strong swimmer. he turned back around to face me with tears in his eyes and he looked down at our feet hanging down from the branch. i pushed his face up and i made a promise, a promise which changed our lives. i promised i would swim with him, i would drown with him, i promised i would stay with him always and forever...